Gahhhhh!!! Lately I'm just super duper frustrated!!~
Over the time i'm here in KL, I've bonded with quite a few people, and there's this one girl in particular that I am friends with... She's really charming and girl y and nice( something that will take me 100 evolutions to become), and I thought, wow, what a wonderful person. And now we're in a group and our working experience together has been nothing but agony and pain.
No offense, but what a pain in the ass!!!
Even though she is efficient in her work, she complains and whines a lot. She thinks that she's the only one contributing the most and that other people's efforts are inferior compared to hers.
She kept on harping on how stressful and how huge her responsibility is. Other than that, she WANTED to take MORE responsibility herself, but after that she kept saying that the leader (that's me) keep giving her responsibilities that are too big for her to chew, and what's worst, she did it behind my back! I mean, come on! just tell me if you're job is too stressful! I'll just add those burden to my already heavy burden, that's all, no big deal.
And what's more, she kept on saying she don't want to present, she don't want to do this, she don't want to do that... But the truth is, she wants to contribute but wants people to abide, praise and beg her more! For a few days, the other group members and I were saying " do it please~, please do it, just present, you can present very well, you're English is the best amongst all of us (but actually I'm better, eckhem.) so on and so forth. AND IN THE END SHE'LL RELUCTANTLY SAY YES, BUT REPEATS THIS ACT AGAIN THE NEXT DAY!!! WHAT THE F**K!
grrrr... too bad that my other team member's English is not that good... the 2 presenters for our group assignment had to be her and I. BUT I SWEAR, IF SHE REPEATS THIS AGAIN... I'll switch her off with the others. I don't care if their English isn't slangy.
Grrrr... we were suppose to present today and get things over with, but there isn't enough time and the were some group who cut queues!!! Now my stress has to be with me until next Monday!!! GAHHHHHHHH!!! MOTHER F**KERS!!!! SON OF A B***H!!!!!!!
I hope I can change groups soon... I hope the group is not permanent...
But one good thing is that, i saw my crush today~
That will be all. =x=
Friday, April 30, 2010
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
New Start in KL
The semi independent life is too sweet to savour, while the loneliness is strangely inviting...
Anyway, here's what is going on lately...
1. I have less than 6 hours of sleep everyday and soon to reduce to 4 hours ( if i'm lucky)...
2. I commute to school everyday on shuttle bus (and darn those busses for picking students up only after 2pm...)
3. I made lots of new friends! yay, LOL.
4. I'm making an effort to visit my brother every weekend.
5. Currently interested in architecture, i think its due to my competitiveness... I wanna win those bloody guys... hehe.
6. I miss my friends and family very very much!
7. ...But i usually fall asleep when i get home and couldn't call them...
8. I love broadband but it is extremely slow... But at least i could go online.
9. I'm going to blog as much as i can, with 10 things to tell on my posts-to-be.
10. I'll keep you guys posted. Muax muax.
Peace.
Anyway, here's what is going on lately...
1. I have less than 6 hours of sleep everyday and soon to reduce to 4 hours ( if i'm lucky)...
2. I commute to school everyday on shuttle bus (and darn those busses for picking students up only after 2pm...)
3. I made lots of new friends! yay, LOL.
4. I'm making an effort to visit my brother every weekend.
5. Currently interested in architecture, i think its due to my competitiveness... I wanna win those bloody guys... hehe.
6. I miss my friends and family very very much!
7. ...But i usually fall asleep when i get home and couldn't call them...
8. I love broadband but it is extremely slow... But at least i could go online.
9. I'm going to blog as much as i can, with 10 things to tell on my posts-to-be.
10. I'll keep you guys posted. Muax muax.
Peace.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
The Power Of Friendship!!!~~~and some other stuff.
Don't have much time and not in the mood.So i'll just keep it short and sweet.
So yesterday was our school's annual fitness run. Pumpkin, Nuts and I met up in the canteen. We're all aiming to get one point for our house since its our senior year here in Lok Yuk. I'm aiming for a point, yup, just one point for my house---Uranus.Yea!!!Burning flame. But i was also quite discouraged that we have to finish the 5.5km run in 45 minutes. So, as usual Pumpkin came up with a plan. We need run in the start. Reach Tanjung Lipat in approximately 25 minutes and 20 minutes to reach school. Sounds easy? IT'S NOT!!! RAWRRRRHHHhhhh...
We assembled in the hall and after some crap speech, we went out and waited for the run to start. We were seriously running like hell... Trying to keep up with Eileen and Karen. But that only went on for like 5 minutes...Then they were out of sight...So sad. So i was alone with Pumpkin. But that kept me motivated. I was struggling to keep up with her all the time, I'm not nearly as fit as her and i don't want to used up all my energy from the start, so i tried to keep it evenly spread through out the whole run. Silly lines like:Jia you, Jia you, and tempo beats like 1,2,3,4,2,2,3,4...came up... Just to keep us motivated. When we reach Tanjung Lipat we were both out of breath. So we held hands and recited d tempo(inside our head), swinging our hand while we go. A lot of people are in the way, so it was like a overtake spree. We passed CKK once, YHK once, Eileen and Karen once, Soh twice. This really burn up our spirit~~~for a few seconds.
=.=''
I don't know how to describe the feeling, but its like a sense of comfort and a bit of power. So the hold hands system was like i push her on when she gets tired and she pushes me on when i'm tired. So its like mutual pushing. In the end i knew that she couldn't take it anymore, actually both of us can't, because we can't even sprint when we want to. So we just walk slowly, when we reach school it might have been around 48 minutes already.. We're so disappointed... But then the teacher keeps waving her hand, giving us the come here gesture, we had hope!!!~~~
So we got a point. Yay. I guess 100 plus does give people motivation too.haha. That's what we had wanted when we reach school. It's funny when you think about it...
So i awarded myself with a trophy ice cream(eventhough it's overpriced,rm2.50 man..)and a cold nice, fizzy 100 plus.
After that is the assembly again,
Uranus got 1st, with 102 points.
Zuhal is in 2nd.
Musytari in third. Broke record.
Marikh in Last. Shocking. Broke the record too.
and the funny thing is that, Hopperilla got number eight in the run for male's group A. while soh had gastric and walk in the girl's route.
Truly shocking.
>w<
So yesterday was our school's annual fitness run. Pumpkin, Nuts and I met up in the canteen. We're all aiming to get one point for our house since its our senior year here in Lok Yuk. I'm aiming for a point, yup, just one point for my house---Uranus.Yea!!!Burning flame. But i was also quite discouraged that we have to finish the 5.5km run in 45 minutes. So, as usual Pumpkin came up with a plan. We need run in the start. Reach Tanjung Lipat in approximately 25 minutes and 20 minutes to reach school. Sounds easy? IT'S NOT!!! RAWRRRRHHHhhhh...
We assembled in the hall and after some crap speech, we went out and waited for the run to start. We were seriously running like hell... Trying to keep up with Eileen and Karen. But that only went on for like 5 minutes...Then they were out of sight...So sad. So i was alone with Pumpkin. But that kept me motivated. I was struggling to keep up with her all the time, I'm not nearly as fit as her and i don't want to used up all my energy from the start, so i tried to keep it evenly spread through out the whole run. Silly lines like:Jia you, Jia you, and tempo beats like 1,2,3,4,2,2,3,4...came up... Just to keep us motivated. When we reach Tanjung Lipat we were both out of breath. So we held hands and recited d tempo(inside our head), swinging our hand while we go. A lot of people are in the way, so it was like a overtake spree. We passed CKK once, YHK once, Eileen and Karen once, Soh twice. This really burn up our spirit~~~for a few seconds.
=.=''
I don't know how to describe the feeling, but its like a sense of comfort and a bit of power. So the hold hands system was like i push her on when she gets tired and she pushes me on when i'm tired. So its like mutual pushing. In the end i knew that she couldn't take it anymore, actually both of us can't, because we can't even sprint when we want to. So we just walk slowly, when we reach school it might have been around 48 minutes already.. We're so disappointed... But then the teacher keeps waving her hand, giving us the come here gesture, we had hope!!!~~~
So we got a point. Yay. I guess 100 plus does give people motivation too.haha. That's what we had wanted when we reach school. It's funny when you think about it...
So i awarded myself with a trophy ice cream(eventhough it's overpriced,rm2.50 man..)and a cold nice, fizzy 100 plus.
After that is the assembly again,
Uranus got 1st, with 102 points.
Zuhal is in 2nd.
Musytari in third. Broke record.
Marikh in Last. Shocking. Broke the record too.
and the funny thing is that, Hopperilla got number eight in the run for male's group A. while soh had gastric and walk in the girl's route.
Truly shocking.
>w<
Thursday, December 11, 2008
lol.. tagged again haha..
Here it goes *w*
Question: What is your name? (Please give one answer)
1] Karine Goh
Question: What is your nickname? (Please give two answers)
1] Mei, Jie (family)
2] Karine (friends)
Question: Three books which you often read? (Please give three answers)
1] Women are from Venus, Men are from Mars =) (recently)
2] Biology Form4 Textbook
3] The sociology of Men
Question: The things gained from Blogging? (Please give four answers)
1]My sanctuary
2]A place to vent out feelings
3]Share experience and events ^^
4]My English deteriorate
Question: Your favorite food? (Please give five answers)
1] Chocolate
2] Cheesy wedges
3] Zinger Burger
4] McDonald's Double Cheese Burger
5] Spagetti
Question: Favorite songs? (Please give six answers)
1] A Blossom Fell-Nat King Cole
2] Gimme Gimme A Man After Midnight-ABBA
3] La Vie En Rose-Edith Piaf
4]If You Love Me-Olivia Newton John
5] L.O.V.E-Nat King Cole
6] Catch a Falling Star-Perry Como
Question: Places that you wish to go? (Please give seven answers)
1] Japan
2] Paris
3] Rome
4] Italy
5] England
6] New York(woots~broadway~~~)
7] The entire world except Malaysia, and other countries beneath it.
Question: All-time favorite movies, dramas, or animes? (Please give eight answers)
1] Anime - Howl's Moving Castle
2] Anime - Totoro
3] Anime - Princess Mononoke
4] Anime - Grave of the Fireflies
5] Anime - Spirited Away
6] Anime - Metropolis
7] Anime - Poco Rosso
8] Anime - Piano Forest
Question: Items that you wish to obtain? (Please give nine answers)
1] G-pen
2] Tone paper
3] Skills of a pro when drawing manga
4] Skills of using photoshop, Autocad, Photo Image, Sketch up.
5] Money
6] Self Confidence
7] All the knowledge in the world, esp lingual abilities.
8] Adoration(lol)
9] my own clothing line
Question: You want to pass this tag to? (Please give the names of 10 friends)
1] Amanda Lok
2] Amanda Avril
3] Lily
4] Dav
5] Naomi
6] Natalia
7] Pawsoh
8] My sis
9] Miy
10] Hopperilla
Here it goes *w*
Question: What is your name? (Please give one answer)
1] Karine Goh
Question: What is your nickname? (Please give two answers)
1] Mei, Jie (family)
2] Karine (friends)
Question: Three books which you often read? (Please give three answers)
1] Women are from Venus, Men are from Mars =) (recently)
2] Biology Form4 Textbook
3] The sociology of Men
Question: The things gained from Blogging? (Please give four answers)
1]My sanctuary
2]A place to vent out feelings
3]Share experience and events ^^
4]My English deteriorate
Question: Your favorite food? (Please give five answers)
1] Chocolate
2] Cheesy wedges
3] Zinger Burger
4] McDonald's Double Cheese Burger
5] Spagetti
Question: Favorite songs? (Please give six answers)
1] A Blossom Fell-Nat King Cole
2] Gimme Gimme A Man After Midnight-ABBA
3] La Vie En Rose-Edith Piaf
4]If You Love Me-Olivia Newton John
5] L.O.V.E-Nat King Cole
6] Catch a Falling Star-Perry Como
Question: Places that you wish to go? (Please give seven answers)
1] Japan
2] Paris
3] Rome
4] Italy
5] England
6] New York(woots~broadway~~~)
7] The entire world except Malaysia, and other countries beneath it.
Question: All-time favorite movies, dramas, or animes? (Please give eight answers)
1] Anime - Howl's Moving Castle
2] Anime - Totoro
3] Anime - Princess Mononoke
4] Anime - Grave of the Fireflies
5] Anime - Spirited Away
6] Anime - Metropolis
7] Anime - Poco Rosso
8] Anime - Piano Forest
Question: Items that you wish to obtain? (Please give nine answers)
1] G-pen
2] Tone paper
3] Skills of a pro when drawing manga
4] Skills of using photoshop, Autocad, Photo Image, Sketch up.
5] Money
6] Self Confidence
7] All the knowledge in the world, esp lingual abilities.
8] Adoration(lol)
9] my own clothing line
Question: You want to pass this tag to? (Please give the names of 10 friends)
1] Amanda Lok
2] Amanda Avril
3] Lily
4] Dav
5] Naomi
6] Natalia
7] Pawsoh
8] My sis
9] Miy
10] Hopperilla
More taggies~~~yay.==''
The first letter of my name
K
K
4 LETTER WORD:
Kite
BOY NAME:
Kelvin
GIRL NAME:
Kristy
GIRL NAME:
Kristy
SURNAME:
Kardashian
OCCUPATION:
Key Keeper
A COLOR:
Khaki Green
SOMETHING YOU WEAR:
Khaki Jeans
BEVERAGE:
FOOD:
Kiwi
SOMETHING FOUND IN BATHROOM:
Kleenex Tissue
A PLACE:
Kyoto
REASON FOR BEING LATE:
Kid threw eggs on me
SOMETHING YOU SHOUT:
Kristy~ur so cute~~~~~~~~~~~~~
YOU'RE tagged!
People whose names starts with the letter C.
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Forced to do this by evil bunny kins, but i guess thr's justice in the world.in ur face.haha.
Dear (the last person who left a comment on your blog).
I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___.I think I realized it when ___2______3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.___12___.
P/S: You are so lifeless, ___13___, -The name of the person that tagged you-.
1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister
2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes
3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife
4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out
5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk
6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed
7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That Sour pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks
8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Grey - our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service
9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college
10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked
11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
>Other - To hate the Boston Celtics
12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family
13. What is your favorite activities when hanging out with mates?
Gathering for drinks - Ugly pig
Foosball - Silly duck
Shopping - French kisser
Dulging for food - Cranky banana
Movies - Smelly armpits
Snacks - Horny wolf
Snooker - Tiny nipples
Bowling - Sexy grandmother
Outdoor activities - Vain pot
Having a long talk - Nose plucker
Taking pictures - Dumb bitch
Other - Burn yourself
So.. the last person who left me a comment (tagbox) --- Evil Bunny Kins (taadaa!)
Dear Evil Bunny Kins;
I don't really know how to tell you this, but i'll join the monastery. I think I realized it when your dwarf bit me outside of Chicago and I saw you sit on my father. I'm sure you're frostbitten enough to understand that sour pimples are at the last stage. I'm returning your old lottery coupons to you, but I'll keep your left ear as a memory. You should also know that I never openly mocked eggplant fetishism. Go burn.
P/S: You are so lifeless, french kisser, Evil Bunny Kins.
TAG TIME:
1. Miyage
2. Pawsoh
3. Winnee
4. Danny
5. Lily
I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___.I think I realized it when ___2______3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.___12___.
Loves;
-Your name-
-Your name-
P/S: You are so lifeless, ___13___, -The name of the person that tagged you-.
1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister
2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes
3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife
4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out
5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk
6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed
7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That Sour pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks
8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
So.. the last person who left me a comment (tagbox) --- Evil Bunny Kins (taadaa!)
Dear Evil Bunny Kins;
I don't really know how to tell you this, but i'll join the monastery. I think I realized it when your dwarf bit me outside of Chicago and I saw you sit on my father. I'm sure you're frostbitten enough to understand that sour pimples are at the last stage. I'm returning your old lottery coupons to you, but I'll keep your left ear as a memory. You should also know that I never openly mocked eggplant fetishism. Go burn.
Loves;
Karine.
Karine.
P/S: You are so lifeless, french kisser, Evil Bunny Kins.
TAG TIME:
1. Miyage
2. Pawsoh
3. Winnee
4. Danny
5. Lily
Monday, November 3, 2008
I'm back~From Kelantan.=)
Phew,the trip to Kelantan ended earlier than expected. The time spent there is filled with...well, a lot of feelings. Tried to keep a memoir, so here it is in chronological order. =) I leave the passage written as they were, because they are based on my emotions for that particular day, so no change is made to the text. AT ALL.
P.S:/: Jo, don't worry too much.
31st October,Friday
OMG!!! We're going to Kelantan tomorrow! Ahhhh! I so do not have time for this~ Gonna take a nap first, after that, I'll eat my early dinner. Then, I'll have to go for water color class. I did all this and went home. At approximately 10pm, I received a call. It was Madame Rose.
'Hey, you were suppose to call me.'
'Um.. Sorry teacher, i was in art class.'
'OK, fine. There is something i need to tell you Karine. Lulu and Bessi are not coming... So you will have to speak..'
'No, wait. What!? What do you mean by they are not coming? I thought they've agreed to c..'
'Well, you see Karine. This is what happened, everything was so last minute. You see..Bessi says.....'
Thus, with a sad, disappointed tone and sounded as if she's choking back her tears, Madame Rose explained everything. That Lulu is not coming because she's sick and how Bessi has agreed to go but canceled again after finding out that Lulu is not going. Teacher explained Bessi's reasons. To Madame Rose, it may seem unreasonable, but i think i could make some sense out of it...Because teacher keeps on reassuring Bessi that with her presence there, the team would definitely win and such. But without Lu, which is like another huge part of the team AND also Bessi's moral supporter, Bessi thinks that she can't do it? I mean, its scary...The pressure of having to win(more like HAS to win), what if she can't? I think she just doesn't want to disappoint people, IF she were to disappoint.
And so the pressure is on...
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1st November, Saturday
Got up early in the morning at 6.30am, after only 2 and a half hours of sleep. Was packing and doing missing scripts with the help of Low the night before, i was so pissy for not checking properly, and was so totally venting my anger on him; also, I couldn't think logically at that time( so sleepy, right? )and i kept on asking for opinions and stupid questions. Thank goodness Low was there to help; surprised me totally that he's actually so responsible...Maybe its because of the other two girl's absence? So we did the script until 3 in the morning, and after that i went packing for one hour and then to sleep. And so woke up at 6.30am and did some last minute packing and checking.
After checking and packing, i took a bath and did some washing up, i want to look properly groomed, unlike my usual days where i look like a mutt. I took the bag down from upstairs and outside the house, before long, i started sweating again. This frustrates me. Soon after mom came out looking gorgeous. She asked me to check once again, make sure that i don't leave out ANYTHING. After that, I left with mom at 8am for the airport. We ate breakfast and rushed to MAS airport. Our flight is at 10.20am but we need to be there by 9am. As the car approaches the airport entrance, i could already see John, his mother, Low and Low's parents sitting on one of the many rows of bench that is near the entrance. Mom handed me RM300 to buy souvenirs and also for daily needs. Reluctantly, we said gave our loves and bid each other good bye. I took my bags down from the passenger's seat and walked into the airport.
Madame Rose was out of sight. Low says that she has prayer meeting. So, we waited. The anticipation and the adrenaline rises within me. I wanted to get this over with so quickly. I feel like i just want to slay all my opponents. As that thought raced in my head, i observe some minor insignificant happenings. Low's parents were talking to him. They were anxious too, i can tell. John's mom did the same, after that she went to buy mineral water for each of us. What a considerate and warm soul. How i was in awe. My parents won't do any of this as they do not really show their affection openly.I know that all too well. But as long as i bear the thought that they love me in mind... I know it.
Time passes by quick. Madame Rose came, we registered, we did all the rituals needed to go on board the metal bird. Two birds actually.
After we reach Kelantan airport, we took our luggage and went aboard the travel bus. Idiot SARAWAKIEN debaters took their luggage up with them and practically hogged up the space. Low made a funny sarcastic comment...
'why is your luggage here?'
'because there is no booth.'
'then WHERE is our luggage? IN THE BOOTH.'
'good point.'
But then, its already too late, because the front is ALREADY full. So in the end, Low and a few Negeri Sembilan people had to stand up through the journey upon reaching Perdana hotel. Negeri Sembilan people looks like they loathe us or something...When we reached there, jaws dropped. WIDE OPEN. Its totally different from what we imagined it to be. TOTAL CRAP HOLE. The registry sucks, the organizing sucks even more. Everyone from Sabah was separated into different rooms except for John and Low. You can imagine, right?
Lets cut it short, we clean up, had dinner(food was terrible), and started memorizing and stuff.
We've got a big day ahead of us. I don't want to disappoint teacher nor do i want to embarrass myself. I should at least promise myself that much.
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2nd of November, Sunday
Today's the day. The day of our first match. Teacher keep assuring us that we'll do fine. And that we'll win. Personally i felt empowered. I will win; for teacher, for everyone who supported us, and myself.
I keep telling myself i'm good, i'm confident, the substance is solid, don't let anything affect you. Don't let anything or anyone pull me down. The fire is there.
I woke up at 6.30am and get ready. I woke the Kedah girls, obviously they won't be in shape to wake up on their own; chatting and giggling and flirting with their boyfriend through the phone.
I went on ahead. And i met up with teacher. We had breakfast, which is once again, horrible. The food served was so distasteful. Imagine only Nasi Kangar(sticky rice) with fish curry. Gross. However horrible it was, i permit myself to eat one spoon full of rice with curry sauce. I did not take the fish, as it poses a threat to my stomach. Eat some fruits and drank tea. Again, the management never seize to amaze me. With 12 states competing, each state consisting of 5 students and a teacher, which equals to:
*60 students
*12 teachers
*20 people from the ministry
32 person excluding the students are served porridge, fried noodles, baked beans, sausages, nuggets, sticky rice, soup, bread, beef stew.....You get my picture. How crude and how unfair!
Soon after that, the competition starts. As in tradition, we get 1 hour of quarantine time. By this time, nervousness, and incompetence kicked in. I was going to get hysteria stricken. But i tried, really i did, to keep myself together.
Soon after, the competition started. I do not want to go into detail. In the end we lost. Teacher broke into tears, so did Low. I can't stand it! How i've disappointed everyone! I broke into tears too. I called Jo right away. I wasn't thinking straight anymore, i cried and whined. I tried choking back my tears, and halfway,i thought:'what am i doing? As if she's not worried enough?!' So i cut the conversation short.
I went out of the hall...and straight to the seaside.
I felt the serenity there,i felt calm. I breathe in. I put my everything down and took off my shoes and my socks. I just wanted to feel the seawater running through my toes. I cried there. There were spectators, but i don't care. The sound of the waves splashing, the mild howling of the wind, the rustle of the trees...
God, i need to find peace.
I calmed down a bit.
Soon after i heard teacher calling my name. I picked up my stuff and walked towards her. We stopped under a coconut tree, and she assured me that the reason she's sad and disappointed is not because we didn't win. But is because of Bessi and Lulu. She said, looking at Negeri Sembilan's presentation she KNOWS that, with Bessi here, how we could easily win.
She assured me that for a first timer, my performance was already good even with one day's training. Imagine if we trained longer. We lost because everything was prepared on such last notice. I was in a trance, the next thing i know, we were shopping in town.
We stopped at the first floor which is the snack section. All of us bought Kelantan's infamous dodol. After that, we went to the second floor. We shopped like crazy. Females bought batik while guys bought slingshots. I bought 1 pure silk batik, 3 half silk ones, 4 cotton batik, and 2 sarongs. Which costs:
*pure silk:(RM120>>>RM100)X 1 =RM100
*half silk:(RM50>>>RM40)X 3=RM120
*cotton:(RM15>>>RM10)X 4=RM40
*sarong:2 for RM25=RM25
TOTAL=RM 285
*1kg dodol:RM7
*assorted flavour dodol:RM10
*honey glazed peanut and sesame biscuit:RM4
*coconut shaving dessert:RM1
TOTAL=RM22
TOTAL TOTAL=RM307
RM360-RM307=RM53
after that, we went for lunch. By then i was cheered up. I ordered fried noodles and a lychee syrup drink for a very cheap price. For a plate of fried noodle that would have cost us RM5 here in Sabah cost me only RM3.50. And what would have cost us about RM1.50, was sold at RM 1 for a glass of Lychee syrup drink.
Lets just round it off:
RM53-RM5=RM48-RM8(TAXI FARE)=RM40
The people there is quite generous, i finished my drink and they offered me free drinking water. Its plain water though. But heck, you can't get that back here in Sabah.
After that we went back to the hotel, cleaned up and went to the airport. Despite the fact that i almost left my laptop there and has to walk back to the chalet 2 times, everything were going quite smoothly.
We reach KL and went for our dinner.
RM40-RM12=RM28
After that i used my remaining money to buy famous amos.
RM28-RM25=RM3
SO...This trip left me broke.We were cheered up, all of us. We're going to enter the terminal when suddenly teacher went to hug someone. It was Bessi's mom. Funny how fate works. Then suddenly, people started jerking up tears again(except for John, i wonder). Madame Rose had a long talk with her. I don't know what they were talking about. I didn't listen. I don't want to know.
We went on board the plane........................
Like a doll, and exhausted, i slept on the plane. All i could remember was that, my fellow team mates slept on my shoulder. Just this once i felt like i'm protecting them. In that moment...Just that moment...
We took our luggages and bid each other goodbye. I went home in mom's car, i felt so relieved. Finally i'm back home with my family and i'm gonna see my friends soon. I'm filled with a sense of warmth, i felt loved, safe, and i am grateful.
When i reach home, i've forgotten about all the small talk we've had in the car. It was 1am already. In the living room, I told mom everything; my thoughts, what happened, the good and the bad moments. I felt empowered, and i still am. Going to Kelantan was not a mistake, it taught me something, and made me realize many things. After that,i enter my room. And serenity just caught up with me, though the pain in my heart is still there. But i know, at least i'm not alone. Never in my life have i felt so appreciative. I tucked my self in after washing up, i prayed that i will have the sweetest dream about my family and friends and i prayed that they had the same dream. With that i drifted into slumber and thus my journey ended...
P.S:/: Jo, don't worry too much.
31st October,Friday
OMG!!! We're going to Kelantan tomorrow! Ahhhh! I so do not have time for this~ Gonna take a nap first, after that, I'll eat my early dinner. Then, I'll have to go for water color class. I did all this and went home. At approximately 10pm, I received a call. It was Madame Rose.
'Hey, you were suppose to call me.'
'Um.. Sorry teacher, i was in art class.'
'OK, fine. There is something i need to tell you Karine. Lulu and Bessi are not coming... So you will have to speak..'
'No, wait. What!? What do you mean by they are not coming? I thought they've agreed to c..'
'Well, you see Karine. This is what happened, everything was so last minute. You see..Bessi says.....'
Thus, with a sad, disappointed tone and sounded as if she's choking back her tears, Madame Rose explained everything. That Lulu is not coming because she's sick and how Bessi has agreed to go but canceled again after finding out that Lulu is not going. Teacher explained Bessi's reasons. To Madame Rose, it may seem unreasonable, but i think i could make some sense out of it...Because teacher keeps on reassuring Bessi that with her presence there, the team would definitely win and such. But without Lu, which is like another huge part of the team AND also Bessi's moral supporter, Bessi thinks that she can't do it? I mean, its scary...The pressure of having to win(more like HAS to win), what if she can't? I think she just doesn't want to disappoint people, IF she were to disappoint.
And so the pressure is on...
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1st November, Saturday
Got up early in the morning at 6.30am, after only 2 and a half hours of sleep. Was packing and doing missing scripts with the help of Low the night before, i was so pissy for not checking properly, and was so totally venting my anger on him; also, I couldn't think logically at that time( so sleepy, right? )and i kept on asking for opinions and stupid questions. Thank goodness Low was there to help; surprised me totally that he's actually so responsible...Maybe its because of the other two girl's absence? So we did the script until 3 in the morning, and after that i went packing for one hour and then to sleep. And so woke up at 6.30am and did some last minute packing and checking.
After checking and packing, i took a bath and did some washing up, i want to look properly groomed, unlike my usual days where i look like a mutt. I took the bag down from upstairs and outside the house, before long, i started sweating again. This frustrates me. Soon after mom came out looking gorgeous. She asked me to check once again, make sure that i don't leave out ANYTHING. After that, I left with mom at 8am for the airport. We ate breakfast and rushed to MAS airport. Our flight is at 10.20am but we need to be there by 9am. As the car approaches the airport entrance, i could already see John, his mother, Low and Low's parents sitting on one of the many rows of bench that is near the entrance. Mom handed me RM300 to buy souvenirs and also for daily needs. Reluctantly, we said gave our loves and bid each other good bye. I took my bags down from the passenger's seat and walked into the airport.
Madame Rose was out of sight. Low says that she has prayer meeting. So, we waited. The anticipation and the adrenaline rises within me. I wanted to get this over with so quickly. I feel like i just want to slay all my opponents. As that thought raced in my head, i observe some minor insignificant happenings. Low's parents were talking to him. They were anxious too, i can tell. John's mom did the same, after that she went to buy mineral water for each of us. What a considerate and warm soul. How i was in awe. My parents won't do any of this as they do not really show their affection openly.I know that all too well. But as long as i bear the thought that they love me in mind... I know it.
Time passes by quick. Madame Rose came, we registered, we did all the rituals needed to go on board the metal bird. Two birds actually.
After we reach Kelantan airport, we took our luggage and went aboard the travel bus. Idiot SARAWAKIEN debaters took their luggage up with them and practically hogged up the space. Low made a funny sarcastic comment...
'why is your luggage here?'
'because there is no booth.'
'then WHERE is our luggage? IN THE BOOTH.'
'good point.'
But then, its already too late, because the front is ALREADY full. So in the end, Low and a few Negeri Sembilan people had to stand up through the journey upon reaching Perdana hotel. Negeri Sembilan people looks like they loathe us or something...When we reached there, jaws dropped. WIDE OPEN. Its totally different from what we imagined it to be. TOTAL CRAP HOLE. The registry sucks, the organizing sucks even more. Everyone from Sabah was separated into different rooms except for John and Low. You can imagine, right?
Lets cut it short, we clean up, had dinner(food was terrible), and started memorizing and stuff.
We've got a big day ahead of us. I don't want to disappoint teacher nor do i want to embarrass myself. I should at least promise myself that much.
**********************************************************************
2nd of November, Sunday
Today's the day. The day of our first match. Teacher keep assuring us that we'll do fine. And that we'll win. Personally i felt empowered. I will win; for teacher, for everyone who supported us, and myself.
I keep telling myself i'm good, i'm confident, the substance is solid, don't let anything affect you. Don't let anything or anyone pull me down. The fire is there.
I woke up at 6.30am and get ready. I woke the Kedah girls, obviously they won't be in shape to wake up on their own; chatting and giggling and flirting with their boyfriend through the phone.
I went on ahead. And i met up with teacher. We had breakfast, which is once again, horrible. The food served was so distasteful. Imagine only Nasi Kangar(sticky rice) with fish curry. Gross. However horrible it was, i permit myself to eat one spoon full of rice with curry sauce. I did not take the fish, as it poses a threat to my stomach. Eat some fruits and drank tea. Again, the management never seize to amaze me. With 12 states competing, each state consisting of 5 students and a teacher, which equals to:
*60 students
*12 teachers
*20 people from the ministry
32 person excluding the students are served porridge, fried noodles, baked beans, sausages, nuggets, sticky rice, soup, bread, beef stew.....You get my picture. How crude and how unfair!
Soon after that, the competition starts. As in tradition, we get 1 hour of quarantine time. By this time, nervousness, and incompetence kicked in. I was going to get hysteria stricken. But i tried, really i did, to keep myself together.
Soon after, the competition started. I do not want to go into detail. In the end we lost. Teacher broke into tears, so did Low. I can't stand it! How i've disappointed everyone! I broke into tears too. I called Jo right away. I wasn't thinking straight anymore, i cried and whined. I tried choking back my tears, and halfway,i thought:'what am i doing? As if she's not worried enough?!' So i cut the conversation short.
I went out of the hall...and straight to the seaside.
I felt the serenity there,i felt calm. I breathe in. I put my everything down and took off my shoes and my socks. I just wanted to feel the seawater running through my toes. I cried there. There were spectators, but i don't care. The sound of the waves splashing, the mild howling of the wind, the rustle of the trees...
God, i need to find peace.
I calmed down a bit.
Soon after i heard teacher calling my name. I picked up my stuff and walked towards her. We stopped under a coconut tree, and she assured me that the reason she's sad and disappointed is not because we didn't win. But is because of Bessi and Lulu. She said, looking at Negeri Sembilan's presentation she KNOWS that, with Bessi here, how we could easily win.
She assured me that for a first timer, my performance was already good even with one day's training. Imagine if we trained longer. We lost because everything was prepared on such last notice. I was in a trance, the next thing i know, we were shopping in town.
We stopped at the first floor which is the snack section. All of us bought Kelantan's infamous dodol. After that, we went to the second floor. We shopped like crazy. Females bought batik while guys bought slingshots. I bought 1 pure silk batik, 3 half silk ones, 4 cotton batik, and 2 sarongs. Which costs:
*pure silk:(RM120>>>RM100)X 1 =RM100
*half silk:(RM50>>>RM40)X 3=RM120
*cotton:(RM15>>>RM10)X 4=RM40
*sarong:2 for RM25=RM25
TOTAL=RM 285
*1kg dodol:RM7
*assorted flavour dodol:RM10
*honey glazed peanut and sesame biscuit:RM4
*coconut shaving dessert:RM1
TOTAL=RM22
TOTAL TOTAL=RM307
RM360-RM307=RM53
after that, we went for lunch. By then i was cheered up. I ordered fried noodles and a lychee syrup drink for a very cheap price. For a plate of fried noodle that would have cost us RM5 here in Sabah cost me only RM3.50. And what would have cost us about RM1.50, was sold at RM 1 for a glass of Lychee syrup drink.
Lets just round it off:
RM53-RM5=RM48-RM8(TAXI FARE)=RM40
The people there is quite generous, i finished my drink and they offered me free drinking water. Its plain water though. But heck, you can't get that back here in Sabah.
After that we went back to the hotel, cleaned up and went to the airport. Despite the fact that i almost left my laptop there and has to walk back to the chalet 2 times, everything were going quite smoothly.
We reach KL and went for our dinner.
RM40-RM12=RM28
After that i used my remaining money to buy famous amos.
RM28-RM25=RM3
SO...This trip left me broke.We were cheered up, all of us. We're going to enter the terminal when suddenly teacher went to hug someone. It was Bessi's mom. Funny how fate works. Then suddenly, people started jerking up tears again(except for John, i wonder). Madame Rose had a long talk with her. I don't know what they were talking about. I didn't listen. I don't want to know.
We went on board the plane........................
Like a doll, and exhausted, i slept on the plane. All i could remember was that, my fellow team mates slept on my shoulder. Just this once i felt like i'm protecting them. In that moment...Just that moment...
We took our luggages and bid each other goodbye. I went home in mom's car, i felt so relieved. Finally i'm back home with my family and i'm gonna see my friends soon. I'm filled with a sense of warmth, i felt loved, safe, and i am grateful.
When i reach home, i've forgotten about all the small talk we've had in the car. It was 1am already. In the living room, I told mom everything; my thoughts, what happened, the good and the bad moments. I felt empowered, and i still am. Going to Kelantan was not a mistake, it taught me something, and made me realize many things. After that,i enter my room. And serenity just caught up with me, though the pain in my heart is still there. But i know, at least i'm not alone. Never in my life have i felt so appreciative. I tucked my self in after washing up, i prayed that i will have the sweetest dream about my family and friends and i prayed that they had the same dream. With that i drifted into slumber and thus my journey ended...
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