Again, I'm gonna blabber--A LOT. That's what blabbermouths do~
oN THE 25TH OF aPRIL--I went to Kuala Lumpur for this debate competition. Not that i really care, i just thought that i could shop 'til i drop, i mean, i AM in KL, and KL IS like the Big Apple in Malaysia..so..naturally, ANY girl would wanna explore and have fun. I went there with my fellow debaters: Ayu, Hamster, and of course Boey.
There's a lot of bad side to it though, because we're in the midst of an important exam--mid term exam. So all of us were like OH MY GOSH! We need to do the scripts! This is because we get our titles late ,unlike those schools in KL--lousy, bias cheaters. Other than that, we still need to study! Think about it, scripts won't be written on their own which equals to time, studying is not as easy as swallowing pills of knowledge in cartoons--which again, equals to TIME! Well, sad to say..But we don't have TIME! Well not enough of it, at least..Well, everyone else is so intelligent, u know? Getting good grades in their academics and such..You could say that i'm d dumbest debater there so..Naturally i would worry, but strangely the other's are more fidgety and panicky about the whole idea! Except for Boey though..Always CALM and STEADY.freaky...
Well duh--he's like a genius that everyone's talking about. Even his friends say so:'Boey, every time that you say that you'll fail, you ended up getting A's or B's, the worst result you ever get are C's.'..I just smiled at that remark, but inside my reaction was :'What the heck?! Inferiority acting on the idiot amongst the group here~?' Eckhem..moving on..Anyways, all of us did the script two or three days early, in the midst of exam, and Madame Rose, supposedly our mentor don't give a crap about we're about to go through! She'll always reply us when we SUPPOSEDLY bug her ABOUT IT:'don't worry, it's only for exposure.' My foot. It's our pride and dignity on the line, not yours; of course for crap's sake you "DON'T WORRY"!Urgh..
Anyways, an escort was assigned to bring us there--Mr Clueless. (well, i'm even MORE clueless but..whatever). He escorted us there to KL. Anyways, back to my fellow debaters instead of boring old Mr Clueless, not interesting, never has been and never will. Man, i'm mean. But it's true--70% of it. We're SOOO excited to go to KL! Ayu, Hamster and I; i think so does Boey, secretly. Anyways we reach the air port and boarded a 2 and a half hour flight to KL. We get express boarding, unlike the Tsung Tsins(err..is this how it's spelled?like i care.) who have to wait in line and unable to sit together on board the airplane. Hah! in your face girls! Well, not to be mean here, it's just that they are a bunch of self absorbed, selfish, insensitive, unthoughtful, spoiled bitches who doesn't care whether they hurt other people's feeling or not! I mean, when they really start dissing, you really start hating. In short, they ARE a bunch of bitches; pretty and yet ugly sort of bitches who discriminates chubby-but cute people!
Why? Well, here's an explanation why i stated so. About why i say that they are selfish, unthoughtful and self absorbed; all of us, including the bitches got off the plane and HAS to board the same van TOGETHER. They wanted to sit in the front part of the van, that's where all the air-conditioners are; they wanted to hog it to themselves because of the REALLY warm temperature. Well, that's okay, its fine--but why in the world do they go on the van FIRST! Either those dick heads really doesn't have a clue or enough commonsense to know that by going in first and hogging the front seat will make it hard for other people to enter to the back, or; they just really want people to suffer and laugh about it. Talk about real scheumanfraude! Meaning enjoy and get happiness, or satisfaction out of other's suffering. And they keep on looking at Ayu and i AS IF we're some kind of rare species and then look at themselves using a mirror AS IF they are the most beautiful thing in the world! PUH-LEEZE..Get therapy, girls! PHYCHO-therapy for that matter.
Next, why i say that they are insensitive, spoiled and don't care whether they hurt other people's feelings or not; when they went up the van unthoughtfully first, one of the girls shouted :'all the fat asses sit in the back, and after that look me straight in the eye and then at Ayu, then turned away. Other girls approved by nodding and by saying 'yeah.' as silent as possible as if i can't hear what they say, as if--we're idiots and they are too good for us. Spoiled, you could know through the contents of their conversation, not to eavesdrop; it's just that they talk SO loud! And plus, as if i want to listen to their conversation. Anyways, their conversation just shows how vain they are; is my hair messy? Do i look fat in these pants? At least not as bad as those girls in the back..whisper whisper, mumble mumble...laugh laugh laugh..Crap them..If i were to slim down and if Ayu were to slim down we'll be prettier than you guys would ever be! Without makeup! Hmph..and plus, i think they loose their debate on purpose because they wanted to go shopping the next day.
Well, enough about those vain creeps. Anyways..When we reach the hostel on Friday night, they gave us two rooms. One for teacher and Boey to share and one for Ayu, Hamster and I to share. We got our keys and went to our room, teacher's and Boey's room is in the fourth floor, while our room; the three girls is on the EIGHTEENTH floor! Thank goodness there's elevators for us to use. When the three of us reach our floor, we were quite shocked to find that the hallway is like the hallways in a prison cell, as we talk it will send echoes everywhere. Despite that, our room was nice, small but cozy. Hamster suggested that three of us combine the two beds together so that it'll be much more comfortable for the three of us. With that said, we unpacked a bit and went out for dinner or supper.
All the shops that sell food is within walking distance, an approximate fifteen minutes walk. We can't decide between KFC, McDonald's, Secret Recipe, Subway, or Pizza Hut; so we went to this mamak stall to eat. But it turns out that all the food were too spicy for Boey, Hamster and also teacher! So with money wasted and food unfinished we left the stall with the Indian shop keeper scowling and glaring at us as we leave. We went into seven eleven while teacher went to KFC to order a take away. Hamster bought a sandwich while the rest of us just browse around. After that crappy dinner, all of us went back to the dorm. We went back to our room, take all the things needed for our discussion and went to the first floor--as i like to call it, the wi-fi room~, to do our scripts. When we get back to our room, i slept like a log as soon as my head hit the pillow while Ayu and Hamster talk. I must admit, i was a bit green eyed because i was left out of most of the conversation.
The next day, it is time. All of us were so stressed! We went to register and found out that HELP university actually wanted last year's debate champions,--Bessima, Lu, and Chloe; to go for the debate, not us noobies. Which is why we are so stressed! We practiced and make palm cards, we made last minute preparations. And we won. The first round. The judges said taht we were equally horrible though, its just that we won because of our stand. We have a clear stand while they don't. Even though we won, we're not happy at all. No, its far from that, we were devastated. because this means that we need to stay up all night doing our scripts again for the next round. For the next round, we lost.We suffered because of it a lot. Everyone gets cranky because we lack sleep. We did our scripts last minute and lack of content, also because our opponents went to spy on us and heard our discussion and saw our scripts..so we lost.Sobxx..And the worst thing is the judge keeps on dissing Boey which i think hurt his feelings a lot because all this while he was the best speaker amongst us. And hamster too, its her first time actually debating but she was REALLY down because of it. Poor hamster.We still love you, Ayu and I.HA HA.
That day when we lost, we packed everything and went out the debate venue sad, miserable and hurt. Hamster went into the washroom, Ayu went in after her. I didn't realize what was going on, everything happened too fast. As if everything went by me like shadows. I noticed that Boey went ahead. I know he was sad. I wanted to comfort him, but i just stood there. Soon Hamster and Ayu came out. I comforted Hamster and offered to treat everyone to Secret Recipe to celebrate and to forget and take our minds off things. Hamster was taking things so hard, she blame it on herself, but it's not anyone's fault; and she did well for a first timer.However, i still felt really bad, because i know she almost cried because of that. Ayu, Hamster and I walk together until we met Boey up ahead. Boey startled me when he ask:' How in the world did she get way over there?I saw her in the front a while ago.' I smiled. He was worried about Hamster! That's why he went ahead. I figured he wanted to comfort her or something. Today for once i realize, Boey is not being cold and he's not being careless towards us; he's just shy and finds it hard to express himself.i think.. On Sunday, he revealed a small section of his true nature. And i was really pleased. It seems to make me feel much better, in a way.
But as we set out the university, anger rushed through me. I figured, i need an outlet. And quick! So i walked, i walked really fast. I can feel my blood rushing through me, desperately, i wanted to scream and shout, curse and wail. But i kept myself going, i kept walking. I can hear my own breath, every huff and puff. I can hear my my heart beat, pounding clearly; every single thud. Until i reached the dorm door then i realize that i am out of breath, but my rage resided a bit. I turned back and saw Boey catch up a while later wearing a concerned face. He ask me why do i walk so fast, i just replied i wanted an outlet. I just find it quite queer, why did Boey strain so much to keep up with me? He could just simply walk together with Ayu and Hamster. With this, i felt annoyed. The elevator opened, Boey and I went in. Without waiting for Ayu and Hamster. I said bye to Boey when we reached his floor and i went out when i reach my floor. When i stepped out of the elevator, without people talking and blocking out my sense of hearing, i realized my heart was still pounding. I waited for the pounding to cease and resume it's normal speed. After a while, Ayu and Hamster came up.
We went back to our dorm, and i wanted to stop thinking about the pounding sensation. I wanted to take my mind off things. But i don't know what to talk about. Debate. It seems like the most natural thing to discuss about at the time. I turned out complaining. Both Ayu and Hamster thought that i was weird, Hamster mentioned that a while ago i was fine and asked me what am i fussing about. I don't know how to answer her, so i just simply said i don't know. There was a moment of awkward silence but they managed to find a topic to talk about. So we talked, and changed into a set out outing clothes, and we started packing everything. All of us reminisce on how we're going to miss KL, though we didn't get to go shopping.After that, i realize i didn't bring my pencil box back from our debate venue. Ayu suggested we go there before we get our lunch. So as soon as it's said, we returned Rooney's laptop, get Boey and went out. Finally!
I liked walking to the university, i like speeding up, i liked the feeling of the breeze rushing through the waves of my hair, i fasten my pace and without realizing it, i was jogging. Again, Boey's behind me. I wanted to shake him off. But i didn't, i just walk fast so he doesn't strain himself. We went down the university. To the debate venue. It's locked. I turned back and asked the security guard and they mentioned that they found it but handed it into the management. It been a while now, but my heart is still pounding, i was scared.
So i ran. I ran as fast as i could, until Boey can't catch up, until i get the droning sound in my ears, until i was out of breath. But its no use, Boey caught up; eventually. "Do you know that you're the fastest runner i've ever saw?" "No, i didn't know that." After that, everything he said was blocked out. A while later, Ayu and Hamster caught up with us. I asked the management crew and two of them offered to get the pencil case for me. What a relief, i can't run anymore. One of the three asked Boey whether he could get a picture of Boey and himself together, which gave me an uneasy feeling. But it turns out, that the guy wanted to show the picture to his friend who looks like Boey. What a relief! Wait, what a relief? Anyways, after i get my pencil case, we went for lunch. I walk in front of Boey this time. Talking for a bit. I was...glad.My widdle pencil case is back home with mommy~
We went for lunch, for McDonald's. Strangely, Boey ate chicken nuggets and a double cheese burger! I mean, he's so health conscious. We went back to the dorm. This time i out walk Boey. I'm sick all of a sudden. Everything went blur, when i start to realize things.. I was already on the plane back to Sabah. Off the plane and in my house. Sometimes i felt that my body isn't mine, most of the things that happened i forgot. And that's the end of my trip. These few days i felt and realize a few things, and missed A LOT because i can't focus. This is so ridiculous. Everything was a blur, remember?
Anyways, there's nothing special with the title, i just wanted to make it sound queer, really weird, really chic, and really--ME.
